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Doa Sebelum Tidur

Kamu pasti gapernah liat aku ga doa sebelum tidur karena dari kecil aku selalu mimpi buruk, aku bahkan masih ingat top 5 mimpi buruk aku waktu aku TK ada juga mimpi yang aku inget pas aku masih play ground. Bahkan sampai sekarang pun aku masih sering mimpi buruk, kalau bisa dibilang frekuensinya mungkin sebulan ada 4-5 mimpi buruk yang bener-bener nguras energi pas bangun, dan dalam 1 bulan juga bisa ada at least 1 mimpi buruk yang aku inget. Karena mimpi buruk itu aku ga pernah lupa buat selalu doa, kalau aku ngantuk dan udah tidur 3 menit pun kalau aku ingat belum doa aku bakal doa dulu, jujur takut banget sama mimpi. YANG PALING SEREM TUH YA bukan mimpi hantu (itu juga serem sih) tapi mimpi dimana aku tau aku lagi ada di dalam mimpi, orang-orang di dalam mimpi aku juga tau kalau aku lagi mimpi dan mereka tatap aku dengan aneh IT'S SO WEIRD, aku sekuat tenaga selfharm di dalam mimpi aku biar bangun karena orang-orang di mimpi aku mukanya udah pada aneh. SEREM. 

WAITING

 i feel like my life is falling apart. Everything is fucked up, pertemanan aku ga bagus, percintaan aku jelek, keluarga aku hmm.....  Here i am, still waiting for something miracle. Maybe if i wait and hold on until im older something is finally happen.. So for now aku berusaha untuk cherish everything that goin on, every little things. Please bear with the little things.

AHA

  nevermind tho i love my life, i can spend a weeks at home without a word and nothing but feeling peace, calm, secure, and happy 😋😺☝

pusing

 I would be so happy if i left this house. Setiap hari aku mikir ga sabar untuk lulus SMA and get fuck out from this city.

Thanks A Lot

You never know what it feels like. This strange feeling is running through my veins, it hurts. One thing you take for granted, but not for me.  I've been clean for 15 months and i hope i can keep counting. But in the 15th month I had a bad thought, I was impulsive.  Aku mau minta maaf sama semua orang, i know imma bad mad person, aku ga pantes disini. Dan aku mau bilang makasih buat semua orang yang bikin aku semangat buat masuk sekolah, this is realllyyyyy triggering me rn but i have to tell this, sorry i had to tell it this way..... VIVIDLY.....

stars and rabbit

Like it Here ( Click This ) Don't change, sit tight... Don't change, you think I'm already tired... I don't mind you stay today Beside, you did it once, did it all I don't mind you brush my hair you said you did it once, did it all... No shame, I won't make a judgement Don't stray, I'm here your opposite direction I would mind you stay in bed 'Coz you did it all, all time... I would mind you act heavy you did it all, all time... This is tiring, still Can I be yours for a day? A day... a day... a day... A day... Way I see it, yes we're odd to be... Way I see it, ooh I like it here...

aware

I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO. All my skincare, my shampoo, my conditioner ran out at the same time, my life feels miserable, i don't have anyone to talk to, I've tried everything i took language lesson, i tried playing some instrument, i tried cooking, i've tried everthing, turns out it meant nothing.